Fear lives deep inside of us. Deep in a dark space, tucked away, heavy and without light. It stops us cold and can instantly bring on the sweats. It makes us do or not do so many different things, things that do not serve us.
Releasing Fear
Releasing Fear

I’ll try to put into a nutshell what came through in last night’s group meditation via channeled information

Fear is a GIFT. Fear is an important part of what makes us human. We’ve been given this gift of being human. As humans we’re given many gifts such as loss, pain and sorrow. YES these are gifts. These are very important gifts that allow us to learn so much. Is it not true that with each loss in our lives we have learned so much? 

Many of us suffer so much in order to learn. Whether we are learning a life lesson or to write in cursive, it’s a different level of processing that we each use. Now, how does this come back to fear? Fear will stop us dead in our tracks and may prevent the learning to take place. If we’re afraid that we’ll do it wrong, so often we stop and leave the task incomplete. We let fear stop us. As a child I always feared that I would not do well when taking tests in school. Consequently, there were many tests that I did not complete because I gave up, I was so afraid that I froze. Of course, as an adult I know better but what I did then became a part of who I am now. Fear can leave us powerless.

So, I’m taking back my power. You ask, how? I’m going to expose my fear. By exposing the fear, I allow in the light. Ahhhh here we go again, it’s all about the Light. “Light is Love, Love is Healing, Healing comes from the Light.” This is what spirit told us last night. I say it all the time: there is no healing without love. To expose your fears is to allow the light in, and to allow the light in is to begin the healing process. The more exposed you allow your fears to be the more Light that can flow into them, and the more healing that will take place.

Do not allow your fears to hide any longer. Expose them as the learning processes that they are. Then … allow the healing to take place.

Post Script: All of this came just 7 hours after I had written a class on releasing your fears: Metaphysical Playground ~ Releasing Fear. I guess Spirit really want us all to learn this lesson. 

I wish you Light,

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Too Late to go Back To Sleep

“Too late to go back to sleep…”


I love theater and this is a quote from “Defying Gravity”, a song from the musical Wicked. I admit, somewhat sheepishly, that until now I didn’t really know what it meant in the context of the song. Recently the full intent of it hit me like a ton of brick. I had just received a message from spirit that basically pushed me out of the proverbial (cozy and warm) nest and the realization that once awakened to the full enormity of All that is, it is impossible “to go back to sleep”. How I processed that went something like : “wow, that was a lot of intense information, all I really want to do is crawl in a corner and forget about it for a while, maybe it won’t seem so challenging after a bit of time away from it.” Pause for thinking and a little hyperventilating, then “oh, that was the message. There is no more time, the time is now and I have to act. Shoot! Can’t I just have a little more time pretending I don’t know it? No? Oh blast.” Then the song came into my head and a light bulb went on.  That’s what the song meant! Once youknow, you can’t pretend that you don’t know. You can’t “go back to sleep.” You have to move forward and put fear, doubt and second-guessing aside.


Are you in that place where youknow but you are still letting apprehension or self-doubt prevent you from taking the next step? Are you pretending that you don’t know and staying in your cozy corner? We understand! That’s what we are here for at the Center for Holistic Healing and Art, to support you in that scary unknown where you step out of your comfort zone and into the Light of endless possibility!! We have many opportunities for you to explore the amazing world beyond our 5 senses. If you need information on something we’re not offering- let us know right here on the blog. We love input!

Feeling like you might be ready to immerse yourself in this kind of learning? We have a week-long retreat in paradise March of 2016 to do just that. There is still time to register and get a $100 discount here: http://bit.ly/1MEHpyL   Find out more info here.

Wishing you Love and Light,

Personal Power

Personal Power


It was pointed out to me recently by a wise and intuitive healer that I was storing childhood patterns of behavior, and that they continued to influence my present life. As a child of depression-era parents, I was taught never to waste ANY food. If it was on my plate (no matter who put it there) it was my responsibility, my duty to finish it regardless of how I felt. The healer pointed out to me that as a result I had learned to not only ignore my feelings of satiety, I had also learned to distrust my internal awareness of what was right for me and look to an outside source for that guidance. I should also mention that like many others in my generation, proper behavior was considered that which in no way made another person feel uncomfortable, left out or could possibly create hurt feelings- oh and adults were ALWAYS right and never to be questioned. For reasons still unclear to me, no one was ever concerned about how that proper behavior made me feel. I’m not saying that the feelings of others aren’t important, just that there are two sides to the issue. I believe you can see how that ties in to learning to distrust my internal signals of what would best serve me.

So here I am turning 50 and I realized with the help of this wonderful healer that my automatic setting, my default you could say, is to consider others before I consider myself. To be more worried about being wasteful than whether those extra few bites are really good for me. To first think about hurting someone’s feelings when deciding who to spend time with.  So my lesson is to reclaim my personal power, to switch my default setting and place the initial internal query on my feelings then to trust my inner guide. Then, with a clear sense of what is best for me, to move forward in honesty and grace with those around me and trust that they will respect my choices. Perhaps it will be encouragement for others to respectfully claim their personal power as well.

Thank you Ed Schaeffer for your valuable insight and the healing you brought about.

Wishing you all Light and Love,

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My Morning Meditation

Morning Meditation


I sit in my chair outside. It’s straight backed, black, wood. The seat is warm. I take in the sounds of the children playing in the neighborhood, the birds singing in the trees, the wind rustling the leaves, and teh crickets so happy. The sun warms my face and I feel the breeze on my cheek. I slip my shoes off and spread my toes. I can feel the air between them, and the grass too. I’m aware of my feet sitting firmly on the ground.

Then it happens, I feel the earth energy come into the skin on the souls of my feet. I feel it move into those toes and the balls of my feet, up into my ankles and now I feel my feet becoming part of the earth. My roots are growing.
I invite the energy up and it responds. It’s moving into my calves and knees. Now it reaches the large muscles of my thighs and I am energized by Mother Earth. At this point I feel the energy in every cell, every drop of blood, in the marrow of my bones! Up it comes to my hips and ribs. As it reaches my heart, I inhale. Not purposely, it just happens that I take a very deep breath. It completely fills my lungs and in doing so allows my heart to take up even more Earth Energy! My heart grows as it fills with Gaia herself. Up into my shoulders now, completely relaxing and taking away every last bit of harbored stress. I feel it woosh down my arms.
Then into my head. It’s then that my breath becomes stronger, my sinuses clear and my headache begins to dissipate. I can feel the energy move into scalp and into each follicle of hair. Now I have this feeling of my whole body taking on the magnitude of the mountains and the majesty of the Sequoya trees. I feel that I am the beauty and power of a waterfall.

At this point I feel that heaven is coming down to meet me too. I am now empowered equally by heaven and earth. I am strong, I am mighty, I am invincible!

I Wish You Light,

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Energy “Protection” for Empaths

Energetic “Protection” for the Empath


Many people talk about the need for protection against “negative” energies, especially for the Empath. This has never resonated well with me and I could not figure out why. After giving it considerable thought, I have come to the conclusion that it is because the word ‘protection’ seems to come from a place of fear, as does the word ‘negative’. I do not walk through my life in fear- which doesn’t mean I haven’t experienced it, just that it is a fairly uncommon feeling for me. While I agree that emotions range from pleasant to unpleasant and vibrationally high to low, I think they are all valuable and to name them negative or positive may be misleading. As a result, I have not been very successful at attempts to cloak myself in a ‘protective’ bubble- since that would mean to me that first I would have to remember to be fearful, or that I have reason to consider fear, and second that I was unwilling to experience any of the lower vibratory feelings. Regardless of where you stand on those descriptions, there continues to be a need for ways to deal with energies that don’t belong to you- especially if you are an Empath.

I have experienced many times when the overflow of strong emotions from others have left me feeling overwhelmed. I also have had moments when I felt intense anxiety, apprehension, irritation or sadness that I could identify as clearly not belonging to me. Although I would agree that these are emotions on the lower half of the vibration spectrum, as I said I consider them normal and part of being human. They may not feel comfortable, but to me they are not negative. Feeling is what we are here for, isn’t it? Managing those feelings and learning the lessons they bring are part of the deal. I don’t think we can expect to relish the love, joy, exhilaration, excitement, etc. to the same extent if we deny hurt, sadness or loneliness entirely.

flame photoWhen I am feeling emotions that don’t belong to me and don’t feel good (after all, I’m not about to reject an excess of joy, love or excitement!) I take a moment. I take a deep breath and with my exhale I send out love and Light to the source of the emotions (even if I can’t identify the source) and release them to be transformed by Source energy. Then I take another breath and imagine that I am a glowing ball of Light and Love and I send it out in all directions. In this way, it seems to me that the intensity of the energy flowing outward from me prevents anything that doesn’t belong to me from affecting me. I am, in a sense, protected and if that word seems right to you, feel free to use it. To me it just feels like I’m walking around in my own little world feeling only what has meaning and purpose to me. I can still sense when someone needs my attention and healing, and I can offer it, but their need doesn’t attach to me. I can also revel in the beauty and joy of being alive here and now. This helps keep me in balance energetically. Try it. I hope it helps you as well!

In November I will begin a monthly support group for empathic folks that will include opportunities to explore what that means and how to remain balanced while embracing the gift of heightened emotional sensitivity.

Wishing you Light and Love,

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Moving Through This Shift With Grace

Moving Through This Shift with Grace


We’re all feeling it now. There’s something that we can’t quite put our finger on, something that has us feeling a bit off, maybe even unwell. How have you been feeling since the weekend?
It’s the Shift. I admit, I was skeptical when I first heard about it’s coming but then it happened to me. I get it now, because it’s happening and I too am in the thick of it. My belief and what I’ve been told by my guides in my channeling meditation, is that it’s coming in waves, and that it is not reserved for just the few that have a certain vibration already, No. This shift is for all of those on the planet, all human beings will be a part of it. I’ve been talking about the vibration of our planet elevating for a few years now but this Shift is different. I do however, believe that it’s happening with such speed now because the vibration has reached a certain level that it is now possible for all of us to experience and feel this Shift.
heaven__s_light_13765932_by_stockproject1-d3p82jnThere are those of us who have begun to feel it already. I believe that those are the people who are actively working on raising our own personal vibration, the healers, the artist, the magik people. I say this because I see it happening that way with those around me. I can’t promise you when the next two or three shifts will happen but I do know that they will indeed happen. All of us will rise together. (“Together”, of course, is a bit of a time lapse video.)
The good news is that there are ways to ease into this Shift with grace. As my guides told me Tuesday night in meditation, it is imperative that we remain grounded during this time. This means making a conscious effort to be present in our bodies, to concentrate on our lower 3 chakras. We must not only balance our Solar Plexus, Sakral, and Root chakras, we must then throw, with force, these chakras deep into our earth. Connection with our earth is so important to us now. This is more than just the knowledge of what is happening to our forest and recycling etc. This is to truly feel the soil, the warmth of our earth and to reach further down into the liquid molten center of Mother Gaia herself. We must not forget that we are human! Those of us who meditate and strive to reach higher for the light are forgetting that we ARE HUMAN. We’ve been given these physical bodies, they are a gift, a tool if you will. We are of the earth. Do not forget this. In doing this … insert happy dance here  … we ease our human. That is to say, grounding helps to alleviate the physical pain and trauma of our bodies. It will also keep us from getting cranky and irritable. All the ‘human’ symptoms of this elevation can be eased with grounding ourselves.
Do whatever it takes to be fully present in your body and to keep the physical distress of this ascension at bay. Grounding can be done with a physical meditation, a walk in the forest, hematite, black tourmaline, red jasper or other grounding stones in your pockets (yes, keep a grounding stone low near your base chakra), soaking in the tub or hot tub, exercise, whatever it takes and whatever makes you comfortable, do THAT!
If you are part of this first wave, you too are in the thick of it now. And if you’re like me, today is a really good day.
I Wish You Light,

*I would like to give photograph credit but, alas, I cannot find the name of the photographer.

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Mexico On My Mind

Mexico on My Mind

In my mind I can hear James Taylor’s Mexico. “I’ve never really been but I’d sure like to go.”  My mind keeps coming back to our Mexico Retreat, I think about it often. Are you thinking about too? I’m so excited for it. 

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I think of all the sun and the fabulous fresh food and the sand between my toes, oh how I love the idea of laying out on that beach doing nothing. Then my mind wanders over to all the fun of big dinners together and laughter and celebrating each other. I love all of this. I’m finding myself giggling at the thought of it right now.  Of course, then comes the whole reason we’re doing this; Our Connection! Our connection with each other, our community and how our community is ever expanding. Especially our connection to Spirit, isn’t this what it’s all about?  I’m overwhelmed with excitement at the thought of spending an entire week in this energy.
Just think of it – waking each morning to like minded people with big smiles to great you, meeting for morning meditations together to start our days. Our days will be filled with adventures and art, mountain hikes and beach side siestas too. Our afternoons and evenings will be filled with SPIRIT! We’ll have Table Tipping, Metaphysical Playground workshops, Art Classes, Empath Support, Mediumship and whatever else we can conjure up. I know right… how exciting!
Last night these were the thoughts keeping me up. Now these are the thoughts putting a smile on my face for the day. 
If you haven’t signed up yet, there’s plenty of time. Also, don’t forget if you pay for the trip in full by October 31st, there’s a $100 discount! This is going to be an amazing week at the end of our winter, March 5th through the 12th.  Check out our Mexico Retreat page with more information. You can sign up directly with Casa De Los Artistas, that’s where we’ll be staying. They make it all so easy, they take care of everything. From the moment we step off the plane, we’re in their hands.  (They’re professionals, they’ve done this before. hahaa) The space is limited. I hope you make it!
I Wish You Light,

Open Eyes

Open Eyes


Sometimes what we do physically is related to what we are doing/need to do internally or spiritually. Today was one of those days for me. After taking the air conditioner out of my kitchen window, I was prompted to clean the glass inside and out so I could – you see where I’m going with this – see clearly. Over the past few weeks I have had a recurrent issue with waking up and having first one and then the other eye swollen nearly shut. After it happened a second time Andrea asked me “What aren’t you seeing?” I shrugged it off, not being able to think of anything off the top of my head that I had been avoiding, or turning away from. Now with the clean windows an old church hymn from my youth comes to mind “Open My Eyes” by Clara H. Scott. Written in 1895, it is as current today as when she wrote it over 100 years ago! Here are a few lines from it:

“Open my eyes that I may see   glimpses of truth thou hast for me  place in my hand that wonderful key that shall unclasp and set me free.”

” Open my eyes, ears and heart, illumine me, Spirit divine.”

I take this to mean not so much that I have been avoiding anything, just that I need to be even more aware and “looking out” for the truth and illumination of the Spirit and how I may use it to serve and connect with others. I will keep this in mind and endeavor to be a bearer of Light as I interact with people through my art, Reiki, Light Connection, and mediumship.

Have a wonderful, Light-filled weekend my friend!


A New Service is Born

A new service is born


All through my life when something is meant to be, it has literally dropped in my lap. Teaching art classes is a perfect example. I didn’t set out to teach, as a matter of fact I had many reasons why I couldn’t, but the persistence of some eager students convinced me and it has continued for the past 19 years.

Well, it has happened again!

I have come to understand over the past 2 years that I am an empath- aware of and even sometimes feeling acutely the emotions of other people. Now I have had 3 people request my advice in how to best manage their empathic gifts.Three is no coincidence and since I am always happy to share my knowledge, a new service has been born : Empath Support. I look forward to sharing what I have learned both individually and in small groups.  I love how this wonderful world works!

Wishing you Light,


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Healer Heal Thyself

Healer, Heal Thyself

Many of us have heard this phrase, but how often do we actually listen? In today’s world of “there is so much to do” how many of you actually take the time to sink down into your own body, into your own consciousness, and just listen? I bet it’s been a long time huh?  How many practitioners out there rave about meditation and connection and source and unplugging and yet run around in their day-to-day without taking a minute to feed their own soul or remember their own connections? Sometimes it’s difficult to practice what you preach.
Today I have a call to action for those of you who are looking to put yourself first, for those of you who are looking to recharge.  I’m putting together a challenge.  This challenge consists of taking one minute to yourself every single day, a single minute.  Yes, simply one.  Sometimes it’s hard to kick old habits [giving, giving, giving and never replenishing].  😉 The challenge is to take a minute for yourself every single day and then share in this community what exactly it is that you did for yourself.  Did you sit with your eyes closed and your heart open? Did you simply listen to your favorite song? Did you hit pause? What did you do to refocus and re-center just for a single minute.  Do we want you to take more time for yourself overall? Absolutely! But for now, let’s just try this. Give me a minute, and I’ll give you the charge that you’re looking for.

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As healers, much of your focus is on the outside, on the rest of the community, and you neglect yourself.  Today, I ask that you reclaim your own body and your own power and dedicate true self love for simply a minute.  Every minute will look different, but I promise you, at the end of 30 days (yes, 30), you will find more self-love than ever before AND you won’t feel guilty for taking a 30 minute “escape.”  Put away the guilt and start replenishing the soul.  It all starts with baby steps.  We will have a 30 minute celebration at the Center at the end of the month.  I look forward to seeing you all there! Stay tuned for details!
With light,